Waking up an Esoteric. Intro.

Have you ever felt so alone? Did you ever have those days where you felt like an empty person? Well ok, I sure don't know about you, whoever is reading this, but I do know how I feel. Deep down inside I feel hollow. I feel plain, more like an empty cylinder.

All I see is black. Why, you ask? That's another one of my questions to which I have no answer to at all. I feel numb, not my emotions, but physically numb. All I can hear is the echo of my endless roaming thoughts. I don't enjoy doing this, you know...talking to myself. I want to be unleashed from the state I currently am in, but don't have the power of will...moreover, I don't have the power to do so. It seems as if my brain has been put on snooze, leaving my body to sleep a bit longer, except my heart...which is the only reason to why I am still here. Sad, isn't it?

Sometimes I contemplate whether I'm this real person or just a shadow in the dark. Having to feel being left behind is the worst nightmare you can ever experience. Wait, is it a nightmare after all?

You do realise how many questions I have, the only problem is that I don't have the answers to them. These questions don't even make up a quarter of the proportion I have in that tiny selfless ball of a brain up there. What a shame.

But if there's one thing I do know about myself...it's my name.

I'm Natal.